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Well, i just went for some citizen reporter briefing at library@orchard. If you don't know what i'm talking about, it's here. Basically, the library is looking for bloggers to write about it and apparently it will be reported in the newspaper. COOL! hahaTuesday, October 30, 2007 When i first knew about it, i was really quite interested - probably because i lead SUCH a pathetic boring life. I've always wished i could write for some lifestyle or gossip magazine like 8 days and this "once-in-a-lifetime" opportunity gave me the chance to feel like a writer! I can write anything i want (relevant of course) and it might even be quoted by the media when the activity is published in the news! That's COOL! haha... Just because of this briefing, i had to forgo my swimming appointment with tony piggy and maxim. haha. Both of them were like so unsupportive of me (which i totally didn't care haha), blaming me for missing the appointment, then laughing at me for going for this activity which he sees as something hmmm... not as important as "bonding" with friends. Well, i really do hope he meant it in the nicest and most humorous way haha. Wait till he sees what i am going to write! haha. Anyway, since i didn't want to go alone to the briefing (that's be so super duper weird for self-conscious, not-so-outgoing people like me), i decided to pull along another friend. An accquaintance i should say - Kenneth. He's a good friend of a good friend i knew during the first three months of junior college life. We got to know each other through facebook and realised we shared similar interests and since he was like president of our college's publication's club, i thought it was the IDEAL activity for him as well. So yup, fortunately he was willing to go with me and i must say it was quite a nice experience. So thanks to Kenneth for the company! haha. You're not an accquaintance anymore i must say, it's really great to know a like-minded friend like you! haha Upgrade lo... haha. Back to the briefing. Well, the briefing was actually much more intimate that we thought it would be. I was expecting like some 50 bloggers (singapore a lot of bo liao bloggers wad haha) but there was only 8 bloggers there! But luckily, things were better than i expected. All of them were really nice and friendly. I must say meeting other bloggers is really a weird thing. Even i find it weird to call myself a blogger. To me, bloggers just stay at home and write about stuff and never appear in public to talk about what they write (with the exception of famous bloggers like xiaxue of course). And i do harbour some stereotypes for those who decided to attend the briefing. It's like they really have nothing better to do ah! and they must be some narcissistic people. haha... Turns out i'm the one who's more narcissistic than them! And what i thought was definitely wrong. They're people who truly like to write about stuff going on around them. I must say i feel im the only one who's blogging about random, simple, unimportant events of MY. OWN. LIFE. Everyone else (among the bloggers) is like blogging about events in Singapore or price hikes and stuff. Makes me feel so... hmmm... shallow haha. Well, we asked questions about the blogging activity we had to do cause we were (especially me and kenneth) concerned if our dirty little secrets we previously wrote on our blogs will be published to the entire Singapore. I must safely say since i've been pretty responsible of what i write in my blog, ther's nothing to be afraid of if the contents are published. (but of course i would really prefer if these intimate details of my life actually remain intimate). The session was honestly quite enjoyable. Jokes from the librarian and the other bloggers really helped to make me feel at ease haha. I must admit i'm not too good at such functions haha. Well, at the end, i did agree to be one of their bloggers for the activity. I really do hope i do a good job though, as you all know i'm not too much of a GOOD writer haha.. So wish me good luck on the writeup! (if i get confirmed for it - which i hope i do!) Oh, before i go, i must thank MANDY MOORE for giving me this opportunity! haha.. If she didn't exist, i won't have liked her, then i won;t have painted that pic on the wall of the library, and i won;t have put it up on my blog and my blog won't have gotten commented by someone from NLB who invited me to the briefing! haha! OMG, i love mandy moore MORE now haha! (sorry if i appear shallow haha) Jloe || 10:29 PM || 3 comments
UPDATES!!!Sunday, October 28, 2007 Super duper lots of updates from me today! haha... Well, seems like all that i've been doing this week have made me think less about my problems (mentioned in the previous entry) which is absolutely greatness. Alright, thursday my branch mates gathered at Kushin Bo at Suntec for Ronald's ORD Dinner Treat! haha. Yups, ron macdonald's is going to ord soon, which reminds me that i have almost one year left to serve! Well, i would say NS is not that bad after all, but of course, my vocation is indeed not bad so that's why haha. Hmmm, ron's departure will definitely be greatly missed, especially his jokes and philosophical comments/questions. The past months with him around have been fun and i must say it'll be a bit weird without him around. Anyway, if u read this ronald, thanks for being such a good friend (in/out office), you've been great company and wish you all the best for your future! i really do admire your passion and i really wish i had your intelligence haha. Stay positive! Anyway, sad things aside and back to the dinner treat! Well, the six of us starved ourselves for the whole day just so we can have our money spent worthwhile there haha. We had many many snow crabs and sashimi and fried prawns, sushi(love sushi!!!) and great lobster salad! Well, for someone like me, that was a whole lot man. haha. We talked and laughed and had a very pleasant time just enjoying each other and especially ron's company. And yes, i brought my camera so i could keep photo memories of this gathering! There you go:    1) 1, 2, 3, 3 and 5 (that's me!) !!! 2) Tony piggy and me 3) and the six of us! On sat, Maxim and i went to join Loba's (Loba's my colleague) gospel outing. It was quite an interesting and fun session actually. I was really dreading the whole ice-breaking-make-new-friends introduction session they ALWAYS do but it turned out not bad honestly. For the ice-breaker, we had to write three questions on this small piece of paper that will be answered by another person in the group. Tell you question my question later. Well, the questions i got from another person from the group was SUPER EASY AND SUPER UNCREATIVE. haha. Which just serves to help me appear boring which is not a bad thing actually since that's the truth and i should be showing people my true colours(or the blandness of colours) from the start right? haha. The questions the person asked was 1) why are u here today? 2)which part of singapore do you stay? 3) what do you like to do when you are free? My answers are as follows: 1) Very sian so i came to join - honesty first! 2) AMK - super brainless question 3) listening music - LIKE DUH!!! haha... The only respond i got from the group when i answered the questions was "so far ah" when i told them i stayed in amk. GREATNESS. Anyway, my questions, in my opinion were much more superior and interesting haha. And to support that, i shall answer it myself. (anyway, the person who got my questions answered them without much interest so it's quite a let down - but nvm! diff pple diff experiences - i shall forgive and forget haha) 1) If there was only ONE thing you could do, what would it be? I'm a virgin still, so hmmm.... JOKING!!!! I thought of a few options for myself. Either GO TO ENGLAND, my favourite place on the world map, OR meet Oprah Winfrey OR meet MANDY MOORE. Hmm... i only have one freaky choice so i think meeting oprah winfrey would be the thing i most wanna do. Reason being if i go england and it turns out to be a disappointment, i'll die a sad fag. And mandy moore will grow old one day and i might not like her by then and the memory of meeting her would seem so much like a mindless act of teenage impulsiveness compared to meeting a true humanitarian and a person of respect - OPRAH WINFREY. Yup, i'm officially Oprah'd! 2) Meanest thing you've ever done? Well, i've done more than a handful of mean stuff. Maybe i should just rattle them off and let you decide haha. Shit, if i'm getting the cold shoulder from my friends tomorrow i know why haha. - i like to stare fiercely at babies and make them feel scared/cry - damn evil i know - pinch/snap my fingers at my maid - she cooks lousy food ok! haha - told a good friend's secret to another good friend - both not good friends le ok! happy! - act like i'm good terms with my enemy and push extra work to him without him knowing i'm the one who did it. and then consoling him. - OMG i'm so evil!!!!!!!!!! i should stop before i ruin my own reputation... 3) Most embarrassing moment? for ditzy people like me, this is super easy to answer. Let me show you how stupid i can get. - i got onto a bus once after tuition (so v tired geddit) and sat on the first seat i could find. Then i realised everyone around me is looking at me with a disgusted face. Then i saw one aunty go "Aiyoh" and i knew sth was seriously wrong. I looked around me and there were vomit beside my seat and on the floor!!!! - after my first day in primary school, i started charging once i saw my mum at the gate. You see, when u are primary school, your mum is your world. So of course, as a good mummy's boy i missed my mum so much i actually charge. (dunno why nowadays there's nothing for me to CHARGE forwards to... haiz... haha) I was running so fast.... before the discipline mistress (big fat and fierce no doubt) stopped me and scolded me. I stunned for a moment - shocked as to why am i scolded for being excited to see my mum. haha. But it was embarrassing cause all the other parents were standing at the gate too and saw it too. I bet my mum's face turned red man haha... - shouting my friend's name so loud and repeatedly when i saw her from a distance away. When she didn;t answered, i ran towards and PAT her. When she turned around, it wasn;t her. CRAP SHIT. hahaha... thousand apologies wouldn't mask the shame i felt haha. After the icebreakers, we played a quiz with questions on GK, people, science/maths, sports and gospel (it's a christian youth group outing what dya think) I must say frm answering two/three questions about PEOPLE, i'm pretty good with my entertainment news. I know who the members of the beatles are, who brad pitt's wife is, and who is the first man on the moon! (if you don;t know you must really fan xing fan xing)haha i'm good! haha... And after that, we played bowling! Well, that;s the only sport, other than badminton, which i can play. Well, i;m not too good with sports but i must say i'm happy with my performance. Why? i scored two strikes and i wasn;t last for the two games i played!!! That;s a big achievement! haha! It was a really fun day and THANKS to Loba and max for the great company!!! And today, i went out with a friend of mine to bugis and gues what!!! We came across the autograph session of ANGELA CHANG!!! She is so cute and pretty haha! We decided to stay once we saw it - we wanted to go plaza sing already actually. Well, i was really wishing she would come quicker cause darks clouds were seriously forming! haha.. But i so wanted to take a picture of her that i didn;t bother about it! When she arrived, everyone just spammed and keep taking photo man! i had to squeeze my way to take her photo! so irritating. haha.. and after she came, it rained! fortunately i managed to take some photos before i escaped the rain and the crowd. haha   1) Before she arrived-> Get off the stage! i want to see ANGELA, not you! 2) There she is!!! so pretty.....................   3) so CUTE! haha... 4) *lovestruck* for mo' haha I must say i was star struck haha. The other celebrities i've met on such similar occasions are Tanya chua (shook her hands !!), stella huang and yes AVRIL LAVIGNE!!! haha... After meeting this friend, i met ahyo YEO at Orchard! Haven't seen him for so long!!! Ha... It's been quite some times since i left my ex company at my ex camp so i really haven;t seen him for really long. Glad that i'm still in touch with him and definitely glad to have this chance to catch up with him. Well, that's for the week! I'm quite happy that this week has been very interesting and really hope this goes on haha... Before i end, i shall show you another picture. It's my painting at library@orchard! haha i painted this last week when they allowed people to paint on their walls. haha.. so fortunate right??? haha  MANDY MOORE rocks haha!!! have a great day ahead =) Jloe || 10:28 PM || 2 comments
I'm having some difficulties blogging now. No, not because of connection problems but because i can't exactly express fully what i want to write because i know there are people, who i don't want reading my blog, doing so. Yet, I would not resort to putting my blog into "private" cause it would be darn troublesome - sending invitations to people who might even not read my blog. So now i can only write in extremely vague terms so as to let the involved parties know who i'm refering to.Wednesday, October 24, 2007 Well, three problems have been bugging me since Mon. One has been resolved, the second one i've decided to ignore, and the last one (and the most serious and disgusting one) cannot be solved in the near future. THE FIRST PROBLEM was actually all my overthinking and paranoia. No one's at fault - we can only blame words haha. And since it involves a close friend and that things have not only been clarified, things are now even better. SO it's a great end to a problem that matters most to me. THE SECOND PROBLEM is and will still exist as long as the third problem persists. Actually the problem runs deeper than just what it seems - at least that's what i think. I don't know how to express this in one word but it's a mixture of anger due to lack of understanding of the other party, disappointment in a friend who you thought will support you and you thought could be someone a closer friend. Well, after three days of deliberation, i've decided, that since the third problem can't be resolved so soon, and i can't possibly hold my disappointment for that long a period without going bonkers, i shall ignore the problem. Alright if he can't understand, i shall ignore his attitude towards me on that issue so that we can go on being normal friends. THE THIRD PROBLEM disgusts me inside out. I don;t get why i always get the disgusting side of life. haha. But this one is seriously nauseating. And because it's so "unhealthy" for me to talk about, i shall not elaborate further. IF YOU"RE MY GD FRIEND (AND NOT DIRECTLY/INDIRECTLY LINKED), YOU'll probably have found it out from me already. Ha... wasn't i simply just vague? Ha... due to pricky nature of the topics (friendship and disgusting creatures) i have to do this. One down, two to go. And it's a long way to go i believe. .................................................................................. On another note, Suzanne Sng replied! Though not what i expected (i expected longer and more personal), i'm happy that she actually replied. This is what she said: Hi Joel,Thanks for taking the time to write in. It's nice to know that I'm not alone in like to, erm, be alone. Haha. You may be interested to know that you're one of the few rare guys who have written in about the column. I really do appreciate you sharing. Warmest regards, Suzanne Sng Journalist The Straits Times, Life! & Urban Jloe || 10:19 PM || 0 comments
This is my response to Suzanne Sng, columnist on ST Life, on her article , "all on my own - and enjoying it". Well, i know it's addressing to her but being quite a personal letter, i guess u guys can learn quite a bit about me from it.Monday, October 22, 2007 Hi Suzanne, My name is Joel and i'm 19 years old this year. Right now i'm serving my National Service and as a clerk, i get to have time (a lot more than most servicemen do) to do my own personal stuff. However, instead of going out to party, or catching rock concerts and whatever there is to do (i have to admit i don't know much about what most young people do nowadays even though i am at that age), i like to stay at home. And yes, alone like you. When i read your column, "all on my own - and enjoying it", i shared the same sentiments. Being alone doesn't mean i will feel lonely. Not going out to have "fun" doesn't mean i don't have a life. I guess i choose to lead a simpler, more personal lifestyle compared to most other teenagers. If i had chosen to live that way, i don't think i will be that "intuitive" enough to reflect on my own choice of being a love-to-stay-at-home boy. Like you, i don't get it when people question me on things like "watch movie alone?" or "how come you so boring everytime stay at home?" While sometimes i lament the fact that i don't have many "out-going" friends, i have to admit the fact that i actually do really like to stay at home, leading a simple life -the joys of immersing in the atmosphere of the music played or even just feeling the daze of the boring afternoon heat while watching television on a weekend. I just find it sad that many people don't admit it or even don't understand how comforting such "seemingly boring" me time can be. And for a 19 year old to feel this way seems really wrong - it seems. Why would i want to indulge in "me/alone" time when i could be having a whale of time outside doing much more interesting stuff? I guess i can only say i like to spend time alone, doing what i like, without people commenting they like/dislike what i do. Like living in my own world but less of the "anti-social" meaning to it. I must say i totally felt the same way as you when you said "you feel like a loser if i ddin;t make plans or the weekends". But after reading your article, it really affirms what i feel. I don't need to be affected by what people do or be concerned with what they say about me enjoying being alone. I don't need to be ashamed of what i'm doing - i'm not doing anything wrong. So thank you. Really. I must say it's your second article (i've read) besides the one which you mentioned about your legs (if i'm not wrong) and not being afraid anymore to show it. That made me feel that i show be happy with the way i am. So thanks for making me feel good about myself. I know many guys (i personally believe) won't dare to say what i just said but well, i don;t need to be concerned with such views of theirs cause they'll never know how it feels until they're in my (or our) shoes - to be alone and not be lonely. Thank you and thank you. Simply, Joel Jloe || 10:26 PM || 0 comments
I was really gonna be kinda happy posting this entry but by the time i got to writing today's entry, all my "happiness" was gone because of my idiotic laptop. It's freaky slow. haiz... Anyway, just some updates about myself for today's entry.Friday, October 19, 2007 Well, i finally did something i wanted to do for quite some time. Or should i say it's something i knew i would do one day and yes i did it today!!! haha. And if you're still wondering what it is, it's actually just donating blood. And i did it on my own accord - without consulting my parents cause i'm of legal age to decide! haha. I've always seen people donate blood, especially in junior college. Whenever there's a donation drive, people will go for it and it would look so cool just because you went to donate your blood. But i never got to doing that in JC because i would still have to consult my parents and ask for their signature and etc - and because i wasn't really in good mood to talk to them most of the time, i just thought maybe i'll do it another day. And that day would be today. Actually i won't say i was all for donating blood today. There was a donation drive happening in my camp and because of the lack of promotion, i guess everyone didn;t really bother much about it and therefore didn't keep it in mind. Me included. But in the afternoon, the medical centre sent out an email pleading for more donors since only 11 people responded to the drive. SO pathetic i thought. haha. So, Maxim asked me whether i want to do it or not and i was interested, but as usual hesistant (about everything haha). But in the end i still agreed to do it, cause at least Maxim was there to accompany me. I certainly didn't want to do it alone. First time le... haha. Well, the process was generally alright. Just had to face some needles and some slight giddiness after it. But it's a nice experience after all. To know that my blood can actually help some other people makes me feel proud of what i've done. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE i finally am able to really help someone. GOOD DEED indeed haha. Before we head back, the nurses put on the bandage(?) for us to press on the injection area to stop the more blood from ozzing out. And Maxim, out of all the colours , chose pink for both of us. JUST the thing i need to reinforce my image right? haha... When we got back to office, people were just commenting on how inappropriate that colour was - like how gay it was etc. Well, it was a stark contrast and it's definitely fun to see the colour pink on a soldier. I would've chosen yellow cause it's my favourite colour haha. Moving on, remember i mentioned about visiting the birdpark many entries ago? well, here are the two pictures. I look kinda bad ah... haha... i never look good anyway haha. The other is one of my superiors in my office. haha... Forced to look ridiculous for some lame stupid childish magic haha...   Well, guess that's all i have for now. Have to wait a bit longer for longer entries ok.. haha Jloe || 10:18 PM || 0 comments
I should set things straight before i write any more entries because i just had a friend who got shocked after reading my blog, thinking i was some kind of "EMO" person, and fortunately told me about it. If i haven't said before, i don't like the whole "emo" thing and it's definitely not in my nature to be thinking about the end of the world (crazy lor, i truly believe we have much greater things to worry about) or thinking about slashing my wrist (duh, i don't like pain) or any other form of self-mutilation, physically and mentally.Thursday, October 18, 2007 My blog, no matter how demeaning it may be to myself, are written under a self-deprecating and self-humor/teasing tone. Any emo-ness is certainly not intended. It's really shocking to me that my friend would think that way of me. I spent almost two years, grabbing every opportunity i have to stand behind pillars and i don't even manage to scare Shihern(JC gd friend) for one bit and now i wasn't even trying and i really successfully scared my friend. How ironic. haha. But things have been clarified and i guess i have to add more"haha"s whenever i write, especially about myself. haha Anyway, the blogging inspiration hasn't come yet - i wrote some stuff after the second para but there was nth i could agree so i thought it was better i left it as such. But it's coming - i guess? haha. Jloe || 9:20 PM || 0 comments
WHEW!!!!!!!Saturday, October 13, 2007 I'm so relieved right now... Alright let me tell you what happened just now.It was like any other usual "music" time, a time when i just do nothing but listen to music, in which i would usually search through my music collection to find songs i want to hear. So, i wanted to listen to Phixx (ok, a band you probably won't know) and usually i just press the P button and i would be led to the "p" artists section (sorta if you still follow me). However, this time, i get the "TINK" sound from my laptop. (must be some error of the stupid laptop) Press another time. STILL TINK. Sensing something fishy, i decided to scrol manually to the "P" section to find the music file that i wanted. TO MY HORROR, ALL MY FILES BELOW "K" DISAPPEARED!!! That moment i swore my heart stopped beating for a few seconds ok! If you haven't figured out yet, i' the biggest music addict in the world. Music is my life. So to have 1/3 of my world detached from me suddenly is like having my legs amputated. No it's worse because i still probably get all my rare songs back and i have 2 less limps! So i tried all ways to try to recover my lost files. I, disbelievingly, open that folder again and again, hoping to see the rest of the files miraculously appear just like the way they disappeared. Well, that obviously didn't work. Then i tried to "recover" those missing files by downloading a software that retrieves "permanently" deleted files (i just found out that files you deleted - like those u press shift and delete at the same time - are actually not removed from the computer). I searched a thousand time throughout my whole laptop and found NOTHING!!!!!! Oh my god, the feeling sucks big time i tell you. It's like what i felt when my new ipod suddenly couldn't sync after i accidentally deleted this idiotic playlist. Well, with no more faith in anything else, i decided to restart my computer. AND EVERYTHING RETURNED!!! Turns out that my files were indeed lost during this stupid disk check. Better not happen again or else i'll seriously kill myself. haha That's how crazy i am about music. Ha. The reason why the blog is "musicsimply" is because music is half my life. I live, eat, sleep thinking about music. I can surf the net the whole day just looking for new songs. Well, now that my music files are back, i can rest in peace now. haha. So BACK TO MUSIC TIME! see ya! Jloe || 10:16 PM || 0 comments
Well, blogging day i guess! Second entry of today haha.Tuesday, October 9, 2007 I was just talking to one of my friends and suddenly it struck me to think why was i so boring. Well, i'm a total bore if u ask me. I don't play games, i never win games, i don't know any games. I don't play pool, i don't know how to play pool well, i can never win pool. I don't play sports, i don't like sports and i don't look sporty nor spontaneous. That's enough to show how boring i am. Games include the usual LAN guys play, PSP most people play nowadays and any computer games. I just don't PLAY! haha... While i may be able to blame my friends, for not thinking of more exciting things to do when we go out (they can only watch movie with me or play bowling), i have to blame it on myself. Because of my limited interest, people have similarly limited interest in going out with me i guess haha - after all limited choices right? Why? i' m not too willing to try anything - cos i know 99.99999999% i will suck at it. and i am 100% not in favour of people laughing at me about it haha. (but somehow i dun mind ppl laughling at me after readin this... hmm.. i wonder why) and i'm not too willing to make promises. It's always been this way working with me. I don't wanna end up making empty promises which make no one happy. So i will also say "maybe we'll go out", "hmm.. maybe lor...", "we'll see how"... which usually is a big turn-off to people. I understand how it feels totally. I suck at organising gathering (pls don't torture me) cause everyone wants to "see first" or "see who going first" before saying yes or no. [With me organising, answers range from "ok lor (very mian qiang type" to the obvious extreme "no". haha] But i guess i do that too often that people don't even call for me le - not forgetting the "boring" part of me which is a big determining factor as well. So ya. i'm a boring person inside out. There's evidences actually. Whenever people introduce themselves, it always seems like they have so much to say. And seems like they will still have something more to say. For me, i don't say too much in one go, since i know i have not much to say. Once i say it all, my boring true self is out. That's why i may seem quiet to some - like v shy, but actually i dunno what to say at all. Worse still, i'm not the one who like to start about random stuff. Like i can't suddenly ask you "why's beauty to you?"( sorry ronald haha)... My mind is empty when i'm not doing anything. Which makes me feel very ditzy most of the time. That's why i may even seem anti-social. But fact is, i'm just a boring guy with nothing better to say. haha. Didn't we all ( i presume) claim that "you say it best when you say nothing at all"? IT DOESN"T WORK!!! at least to me. argh..... why does it always happen to me? like i'm some cold water dampening every single thing. I'm a "BORER" - i bore people. Maybe even a jinx - every house i join in secondary or junior college turns out to be the least enthusiastic one. Well.... at least i'm proud to say that with me, the world and you seem more interesting. ha Jloe || 10:13 PM || 0 comments
Well, my mood now isn't exactly too good. It's kinda hard to explain and i don't wish to explain it here as well. It's something i would like to keep to my good friends and myself only i guess - cause the first thought when i felt the depression force coming was to seek consolation from my good friends. Plus I don't want people around me (colleagues especially) to think that i'm whining or anything else. |
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