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Hi Guys Back again writing... sorry for not updating for almost a month. But trust me, the past few weeks are pretty boring. As i've said many times (maybe to myself), i'm a pretty boring person, so i rather not bore you with the boring details of my own life haha.Monday, July 23, 2007 Well, if you must know, i'll summarise the three weeks for you. For the first two weeks, i didn't have any quality time outside of camp since my sundays were burned due to army training in camp. And for both weeks, i was stuck doing sentry - the first one alone, the second with another my friend, Warren. If you don't know what's sentry, it's like doing some kind of guard duty in which i just sit beside a gate and only allow authorised personnel to enter. The first time when i did it (alone), it was an excruciating experience. It was just me myself and i for almost 12 hrs. That's half a day for goodness sake. Anyway, it was so boring i talked to myself, talked to a bird (who completely ignored me - maybe i was really irritating) and even imagined myself talking to someone else. That's just the tip of the iceberg. I also tried to burn leaves with the matches i had with me in an desperate attempt to pass time. Somehow, i felt the pain of the little matchstick girl. ha. At least she could see snow before she died. I was surrounded by trees and mosquitoes. Not exactly a nice way to die. The point when i finally knew i was mad was when i resorted to prehistoric ways to get some form of entertainment. I threw stones at flies from a distance and i would get so happy when some happen to be squashed (despite my poor throwing techniques). On retrospect, that was totally sick of me. On a lighter note, the second sentry experience was better since i had a real-life company. My friend Warren kept me entertained with his lame jokes and constant addiction to burning grass. We even got to eat snacks since our sentry point is occasionally visited by the civilian food van - a luxury the other sentry points didn't get to have. haha. For the third week, all i know i was glad to be finally staying in camp for an entire week. At least there was clean water and i could entertain myself with my ipod. But the most interesting thing about my last week was i went to a church with my friend Yeo. All along i have been interested in Christianity so this time round, Yeo, invited me and i agreed as i wanted to experience new things. Well, i've been to one before with my godsis but City Harvest, the church, is pretty well-known for being a big church. So that's wel ii wanted to go see it for myself. I've pretty happy about meeting all the new people at the church and going out with them. But religion is not all just going out with people. It's a spiritual commitment that cannot be taken lightly. It's been two weeks and i've been really thinking alot about whether to convert or not. I mean, the implications are ALOT and i really don't want to make the wrong decisions. In a dilemma now i guess, especially since i'm a realist - reality and facts as such... but what i'm afraid of is hurting people (like Yeo) and making a fool of myself (what are the church mates going to think about me?). Well, i know sacrifices have to be made and i don't know if i am ready for it. And THAT's all i need to know to help me solve my inner conflict. music.city.soul || 5:35 PM || 0 comments |
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