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After a few days of mulling over my problems, i've decided to finally not dwell on them and yes, move on. I've come to the conclusion that if people don't like the way i am, i can't do anything about that. Instead of taking pity on myself, the better choice would be to ignore those unfair judgments from those people who don't mean a single s*** to me. But one thing's for certain, i'm not going to expect anything from anything anymore. I feel so tired being let down time and time again from my foolish hopes. But at least now i can safely say those yesterday problems are all boxed up and neatly put away.Saturday, January 12, 2008 Fortunately, i went to watch "One Missed Call" with Yang Sis on friday night instead of idling in my room and thinking about the same old problems. Movie is pretty B-grade but alright for a brainless silly scray show to entertain myself in times of erm... emotional instability and forget about my problems momentarily. Just went for my first KBOX session with Kenny G and his group of friends - namely Cassie, Izwan and Ismail. It was an all English affair at this particular karaoke session considering Ismail and Izwan are malays and Cassie and Kenny G are pretty angmoh-pai. Which is good since i'm an English music fan (duh). As usual, Kenny G provided major laughing material with his goofy antics and weird noises (haha) while Cassie and Izwan showcased thier singing props through the different songs. For me, i was contented enough to be able to go out AND sing songs that i like. After the kbox session, we went to have dinner at Lucky Plaza. I listened enviously throughout dinner as the Brooksians chattered non-stop about their secondary school days. Sadly (ok shall not dwell on it after writing this entry), in comparison to their school days, my secondary school life was pathetic. I had to face my own insecurities and deal with social/class problems single-handedly. I hardly made any close friends (except Yang Sis and Viola) and certainly isn't in contact with any of my classmates. But as Kenny G said, it's better to have a bland life than a bad life. After two bad weeks, that really rings through. I'm glad enough to have a few friends than ZERO friends. It's been hell of a two weeks, a rough start to 2008 but i certainly pray that things will smooth its way out as soon as possible. Thanks to Yang Sis and Kenneth for accompanying me through this emotional period. As Yang Sis says, having too much time at hand makes one think too much. Right now, the idea of being comfortable with too comfortable makes me feel totally uncomfortable. Shall find something to fill my time... But what shall it be? music.city.soul || 11:01 PM || 0 comments |
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